1000

It seems like only 86 days ago that I had my 500th page view, and today I had my 1000th. We should have a party, but not right now, I have to do my econ homework.

Thanks for making it great! You guys are the best!

Saboteur

You know how you have this idea in your head, and it seems to be great, and then it kinda freaks you out that it's actually working so you step back for a second to check and see if you're just imagining things or if it really is working out like you want, and then it seems to need just a little of something so while you try to figure that out it all gets ruined?

I like to imagine something on the stove like rice. You start cooking rice and it's no big deal and then it starts getting close to being done and you decide you also want something else to go with it and you step away from the rice to prepare this other thing. Then you start smelling something burning and you wheel around and grab the rice but it's too late, it burned on the bottom. Oh, most of it is probably still ok and you might not really be able to taste a difference, but the scrubbing you have to do after dinner looms over you and you know you burned the rice.

If I had just taken the time when the opportunity was in front of me what might have happened? I really don't like those questions.

I heard an interesting quote the other day, I don't know who said it, but it goes: "A man who wants something will find a way, a man who doesn't will find excuses." I thought about this in context with one of my friend's remarks to me recently that I sabotage myself. Maybe I have a martyr complex in which I subconsciously revel in the fact that things don't work out because what I claim to want and what seems so often right there in front of me, sometimes even trying very hard to get my attention, suddenly falls apart. Maybe I don't really want it.

Or maybe I just don't feel ready so I don't let myself win the game.

I am my own saboteur.

I guess I like the smell of burning rice.

Overheating Is Bad For You

Well, that's what I get for feeling like everything was actually going right for once.

My aunt and uncle are blessing their baby tomorrow about 25 minutes away and we have been having family gatherings the last two days so I have been driving down there a bit recently. However, it wasn't until tonight on my way back that I noticed the temperature gauge reading all the way over to hot on my engine. That's not good. I parked and checked and lookie there I'm leaking coolant like there's no tomorrow, but the thing is there is a tomorrow and I need my car. Did I blow a gasket or a hose or something? gee-whiz! And it's looking like the levels are reeeeally low, or maybe gone for the coolant so that's not good and I can't really go buy some in the morning because 1. it's Sunday, and B. it's 9am church I need to get to.

I am not a happy camper right now. >:-(

Hey You! You Are Amazing!

Hey you, thanks for reading my blog. That's right you. I love you. You are great, you are incredible. People don't appreciate you and all you do, but someday, someDAY they will. And they'll be all like, "Man, why didn't we appreciate them more back when we didn't?! We really missed out."

You have striking features. Anyone ever tell you that? I'm serious, your eyes... wow. And you know what? You make me smile. Every time I think about you...*ding* there it is, a smile right there on my face. Because you are amazing, that's why. Speaking of smiles, you have a fantastic one, so just keep on smiling and making the world a better place.

You make my life better just because I know you.

You're such a hard worker too. I admire that. You are an inspiration to me, thank you. Because of you, I want to be a better person and give more of myself.

You are strong, you are powerful, you are beautiful, you are without equal.

So keep it up, keep being amazing, and incredible because some of us really love it that you are.



inspiration for this message from here